MI TRANSCENDENCE. :D + thoughts.

ok. here to post because someone just told me to
cause she won't sleep until i post something for her to read about yesterday.
lol. here goes. :I

*lets start with the good stuff first bah. :D

21st may, MI TRANSCENDENCE. time now: 1.07am
YES. that day was a big day for
the Flaming Rambutans as they played their piece.
Us performing "Don't stop Believing" by Journey on Centre Stage,
seats filled with friends and families who came down to our school
to watch MI Transcendence2010 in Millenna institute in the evening.

crew:
Claudia was our main singer, Terry as the melody pianist,
Randon as main guitarist and lastly me as the bass.

behind the curtains.
To realise the excitement that we're going to perform on stage, in front of a full house centre stage filled with people just made us all the more nervous. all of us were chewing on sweets just to claim ourselves for our act next as we hid behind the curtains watching as Sara who was performing before us came to a close end of her piece on piano.

Claudia, Randon & i were all so anxious about our turn; we were all ready with our guitar stripped on our shoulders with the sound cable dangling, waiting to be plugged in for our play. terry was on the other side of the stage hidding behind the curtains too, waiting for Sara to exit so we could all come in and quick set up our guitars and begin our play.

Not long after, we had the sounds of the audience's applause, which marks the end of Sara's piece, alerting us its our turn now and also reminding us of how huge the crowd is that we were going to perform to next. all of us readied ourselves and went in from the sides, personally i didn't dared to look at the audience and just hurried to set up our instruments.

position.
I was taking the bass guitar piece, in which i was pretty worried i'll mess it up again during the play because i know i did during rehearsals and that i couldn't perfect it yet. My amplifier was right at the centre back so i was positioned right at the centre of the stage to perform, which means i had my own spotlight right next to Claudia's. I don't know just how many people were watching me at the point of time. lol. so i kept my head low and didn't dared to take a peep at the audience.

Music began, i could hear Randon's pluck counts coming in, which means 2 more cycles who be Claudia and my entrance to play, i looked left and right for the band's composure and steadied myself for the last time, to hit the right time for my entrance. First note cycle played through, unknowingly i glanced up to see the audience for the first time in this dark hall.

It was one of the most beautiful sight i could never expect to see.
Seats all filled on each succeeding rows of the pitch black hall, each one holding up colourful glowing sticks in their hand, all waving back to us as we played our intro. i've never got the chance to perform and see for myself hundreds of "illuminated", excited audience cheering back at us. It was as if we were watching and playing for fireflies in the cooling night hall, only that the voices from the audience kept pulling me back to reality that we're still performing. :p

As Claudia entered with her voice into the play, we could all hear in the background cheers coming from the audience going mad and people behind the curtain supporting us. And as we all played on, the sense of nervousness began to diminish as we start to remember why we love to play music, that joy that we almost forgot when we were all so clouded by our anxiety.

This was thrill to perform, and i'm sure we would never forget how it feels to do our play in front of so many audience, all listening to the music we played for them. :D

end of transcendence 2010 thoughts.
Hmmm. that's roughly all i could remember. and on a note its quite sad to see everyone had their friends and loved ones who came down and became part of the audience amond the fireflies.. and at the end had people to talk to after the end of the transcendence.
hahas, how i wish i had people to go to after the end of everything..
Claudia even got a big Sun Flower when we ended our play.
that's so awesome lah. :D

Oh wells. maybe i might have better response next year, or maybe i might have someone special supporting me next year. lol, i wouldn't know, lets see whether i manage to get through auditions again next year first. :)
sighs, still hoped you could be there. too bad you had curfew. :I
yesterday: 1.07am
hmmm. well. here's the not so nice stuff i guess. hahas. i know you'll be reading this so this part of the post here can be a little message-like, but i'll try not to spoil it too much. hahas. :)
(still editing, after i get my haircut now. BRB! ;p imcomplete.)

new posts, new me.

Hey people its been quite a while. :)
actually near a year to be exact. lol.
Hmmm. Reason i started blogging again well, yeah i guess its just somewhere i like sorting my mind out. hahas. well, just to give a summary of the current me:

-Repeated my year 1 for MI.
_(no regrets. :D )
-Last year for hockey A-Div.
_apparently too old; next year only allows 1991 and above only. :P
-More updates i'll fill it in when i have
_the time if not usually a new post. LOL. :D
_*somethings just never change do they?* :)


the reason. 1.37am
Anyways. Mainly i'm here because i couldn't post things on facebook cause it draws too much attention? haha. oh well. keep it to yourself & me people. :)

Hmmm. Basically i just maybe realised something that it could be why things are always happening as it is; and this something is one question i have been wanting to ask myself for a very long long time. I never could comprehend why situations always ends up like the way it was not until the simple thought just flew into my mind.
Something just so hard and i never could find the answer to just got blown away by a simple thought: maybe its just that you don't have appearance for people to simply believe you had.

Ha. For all those times which i felt so hurt, got so easily answered in the eye's of a child.
Well. Things are the way it is or maybe i could be just wrong in my conclusion.
But, honestly i don't know. However that logic fits well to past experiences i guess. hahas. :p

However, I haven't given up yet.
Patience is a virtue; and i'm going to wait.
For how long i wouldn't know;
But for where it stops is when
i know the avalanche has been transformed
into a precious, cute snow field. :D
A place where she can build her snowman. :)
now. 1:56am
Back to homework. Ganbette!

maintainance.

( O_O) blog is under going maintainance.. will take 'some' time before i'll post anything i guess. :/

need to change for school now.. chal people. =)

dead blog?

hey just to let you all know i won't be posting anymore as much as before.
hahas. i honestly admit its practically a dead blog, maybe some anniversaries once or twice a month but afterward not much updates ler. hahas.

Quite sad in a way, but i don't want people keep coming back to this blog and always get dissappointed if you're still visiting, which is like near immpossible anyways. haha.

But to cut things clean, alot f things has changed, maybe some things hasn't. I'm not that all I.T. savvy so i guess any of you desire my current situation, just grab a net and spear to hunt me down; oh don't forget the bait.. i think sitting down with me for a sakae-sushi buffet works best. xD hahaha. me and my lousy sense of humor. lols. chal peeps, love you all. =)
7.06.09, 5:04pm.

away.

apologies
Heys, sorry for the super-duper long pause.. =P
honestly i don't know who has been visiting my site vigilantly,
i'm so sorry to disappoint your nice efforts. =x
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Confirmation of my studies.
Anyways, i'm now confirmed studying at Millenia Institute..
though i have to admit i'm having problems with my sciences;
Well i;m glad at least my maths still haven't failed me. hehes.

News!
Hmmmm, anyways: Truth to be Told!
It sure has been very long since i've last thought about having feelings for someone.. i guess the time has come. =)

i think finally i'm starting to open up that stoney heart of mine after sooo long. hahas. There's this someone i knew from my class.. she's lively and fun-loving. But i think i mentioned before that i have a fear for dating girls younger than me, and she's younger than me by 2 years. But she really brings out the youth in me(she calls me old btw. T-T), lol.

Sighs, but things like this i've never really been claim about it.. i mean after all, i've always tried to put my best in everything i do but things just never worked out. i think i've mentioned before also about that hollowness in my heart right? it just feels so physically there, like an abyss. i really wish someone who really cares for me can fill it up one day..
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But somehow i feel she's that person who can fill that gap in my heart for me.. its like a magical feeling really, she gives me that hope to be able to love again. =) hahas.

But the thing is, i don't really know what she feels about me. =/
sighs. how i wish things can be simpler. haha. =x
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I guess every guy will face the problem like this huh, lol. Its just ganbette for me huh. But if by any chance one day if she would to see this page, i really don't know what to say. hahas. i mean she's good in her studies and i'm already suffering in my sciences.. i would have to stabilise my Chem H2 & Phy H2 before i think i'm good enough for her.. =/ tough life yeah? hahas.

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now. 10.57pm
gosh, i spend so much time blogging again. =/
oh well, just somethings i want to highlight before i go:

-I can't idolise someone that's why God is First. =)
She and everyone else is second. And i am third.

-i will be leaving for another long pause without updates again, cause school's really a time-consumer. o_o i haven't even adapted to the constant homework. =/ In any case, just take note if you're going to visit this site please do it once every 2 months. xP

-Lastly, now that i think about it, hopefully you people can keep this to yourself? At least don't start rumoring about this in school, because i feel that its bad to talk about things behind my back. I'm sure i've never wronged anyone in my life before and been very nice to each of you right? haha. At least please return me this favor of keeping this to yourself? Thanks! =)
Okays! time now is 11.08pm.. i got lots of homework to do. o_o
Until next time, chal Friends. =)

updates!

hey peeps! lol. So sorry for my constant 'mia's from Internet connection, i guess life in Mi really occupies my time more than anything else now. hahas. To be real honest, i got 2 news, one good, one bad. i guess i should start off with the bad one..

But before that, here's my combi' for my course:
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Stream: Science, class s101.
(3 H2 subjects, 1 H1)
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Chemistry H2,
Physics H2,
Mathematics H2,
Arts H1
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*i'm aiming for Medicine degree in NUS! jyjy!


Bad news:
argh! i have no chemistry foundation! sighs, i'm totally going to die if i do not start revising O'level's syllabus! Plus what's even worse is that i must get an A Grade for this subject to get into Medicine degree in NUS. i am really in dire need for revision! My Physics too need just as much attention for revision for my chem. My dreams of becoming a Forensic is becoming darker and darker.. =/

But, i won't give up. The results from the coming exams in march will determine my fate in my education. I will take action into revision of my foundations in science for my road into Forensics, but surely this will be a lonely and tough avenue, i really pray i can walk through this bravely.
But at least i think i can cope my Math H2 and Arts H1. =P

Good news:
Okays, enough sweats, time for the better side of the coin. You know what's the best thing that happened in my life? A second chance into education! Though i believe many of you guys will not understand, because you guys never experienced what i've had been through. Just to be able to be going to school is a blessing to me everyday. Now i really appreciate school and can relate to people who really wish to get into a school for education. The sense of maturity is truly there along with my past, i believe i will be more encouraged than ever to take my mentality for learning into my priorities.

Giving thanks:
To be honest, i really want to be grateful that God has put me away from schooling background for 2 years. I was very naive when i was in poly, thus i never cherished education. Now, my perception has indeed changed and i wish to strive for my Forensic goals. I also want to thank God for preparing me in those 2 years in preparing me for the matured mindset to achieve my Goal in MI. Also not forgetting that God had provided me with such a school which is totally covering my needs, i'm very grateful for His wondrous plans. Nothing else can be more perfect than this, none that i've could ever imagine. =)

Ps: i'll leave edits for next time, so sorry for the short edits. =P
its already 10:20pm, i should be dead asleep. hahaha. good night people!
PM my chatbox if you have PURE Chem/Phy textbooks!!! I'm in desperation!

current statues

hey! so sorry for being so away for very long!
hahas. Just to let you nosey people know(opps),
i'm schooling for a week now in Millenia Institute (MI), 3-year-jc school.

friends :)
Was quite a surprise that Yee Tien & his friends were schooling there too. i consider it quite a miracle, cause i thought i was going to have problems mixing in school due to i'm older.

Got to knew a girl in my orientation group who's also kinda in the same situation as me.. at least there's someone who can understand half the pain i'm going through. So it kinda lessens the discomfort.

Also got to know a great guy, literally. Man, though he some bad points yes, but he's really one trust-worthy fellow to me, a real kind-hearted guy in the inside. He has my total respect! hahaha.


educational_route: s101(science).
hmmms. in this expect i have already conquered my nocturnal-lifestyle! wahahaha. And yes i won't let my guard down, going to keep this good habit up!

Also i suddenly had an aspiration to reach for my Secondary school's hopes of becoming a Forensic Pathologist. Maybe because kena psyched by the School's orientation programme or something, hahas. But i remember my secretary shared to me her dreams, i was inspired by her. So i guess this is my chance to reach out for my goal in life!

I'm going to set the impossible: To Get
my Bachelor of Medicine and Bachelor of Surgery!
Ganbette!

"though it seemed miraculous,"
"but suddenly i've forgotten, and moved on."