a series of unfortunate events?

Friday. 5:54am, 30 may.
ello people! a little early to post i have to say, hahas. didn't post for a few days already and i so wanna post what happened on wednesday, hahas. was the most hectic day for me that i've ever experienced. anyways wed's post will be on the previous post, so to look more organised and i can post thursday's event here. hahas.
woah, 2 post at one go, i don't think i'm going to manage.. plus another coming up about later events of my friday.. oh, faint. =_=

Thursday, 'Slumber'
basically i can skip a lot here, cause i totally didn't go for my first lesson at my private school, Penciltuitor.
refer to my previous post if you're curious about my school. lol.
Neither did i went to college's house to help out her work either. what i do? i pigged the whole afternoon! xD hahahas. i'm such an crap i know. hahas. okok, but i did wake up la in the end.

Woke up at 4pm. not long after went to gobble a packet of chicken rice younger brud got me. =) hehes thanks. then after use bath and change to stand-by to go out cause i know i can't stay at home all day. =x used computer while i waited.

Going out! 6pm.
Finally got stable and went out to meet a friend at causeway point. hahas, she hasn't changed a bit. still as lovely as ever. =)) think it has been about.. 3 months ago since i went out with her? hahas. its good to be back. =) we can still click together ever so good.. well at least i think so, lol. oh and victor, shut your mouth. hahas. xP

Pressie! =))
off course the motive of asking me out was to pass me my pressie hehes. cause she has to go for a camp the next day. wah, to be honest, this is a day i'll never forget. it was a day i get to see how much someone put their heart into making a present for me. hehes, you are loved. =)) oh and just so to let you know, you are the first in giving me, it's the first pressie i got, first in everything. hehes. x)

Dinner, my lunch actually. 7pm.
she was hungry so we went down to mac to spent Macdonald points away. but i didn't used mine cause i'm reserving mine for someone. hahahas, i'll post about it next time. total amount we gobbled: 2 student fillet meals, 1 pac' of Mc Wings and a takeaway 9 pic Nuggets.

after dinner we made our way to sembawang cause i meeting another group of friends. 1/2 of the reason is to send her home actually. =P hehes.

Traveling. 8:00pm
she got off earlier before me, was a little sad i could send her home after so much she've done for me.. hmmms. Alighted a the Semb' Interchange. took 882 instead of taxi to the eating house before sembawang park. then a stranger asked for change to drop in coins into the box for bus fare. so i gladly took out my wallet to return the kindness for those times i had the same situation. =)

Arrival. 8:40pm.
finally reached to see everyone almost finishing up. hahas, first thing i heard was college 's complain that she never felt so used in her life. first time she had to serve 3 big boys soup, plus she's the only girl there. hahahas. sat down and chat and have fellowship together. then was talking about getting a BBQ for later today.

Arrangement.
Mainly inviting ken's boys and a few girls? LOL. i kinda feel sad i didn't invite people from my own age. =/ sorry guys.. cause i'm afraid things might turn out to be more of senior & junior thing. wanted the boys to feel more in control and responsible for the fun instead if you guys get what i mean. hahas. ken you wouldn't mind right? its their holidays. hahahas. don't worry, i'll promise i'll take care of e'm. =)

Realization.
Wah. this was the shock. remember when i took out my wallet to help change money to the stranger? yeah, now when they wanna pay their bills i realised i lost my wallet. sad. i don't lose personal things so easily de. sad.

Went to backtrack myself and searched the whole place to made sure i really lost it in the bus. couldn't find it. sighs. Then college and college-to-be both accompanied me to the bus interchange and police station to make a report of lost wallet. thanks guys. =) afterwards we all went home.

Lament. (wallet.)
Gosh. for all things to be lost.. i lost my wallet. it was a birthday present that gan-mei ivy yeo gave me. =( i'm so sorry i lost it. and off course i lost everything in the wallet too. it has my IC (that's why i went to the police station.) POSB Bankcard and a $60+ amount. oh-oh and lots lots of discount cards inside.. Espirit, 77th Street, Timezone card with Qiu Song's balance inside.=x, and lots of old forgotten memories inside... hmm. i guess its time i let go of the past. hahas. don't worry it won't have anything to do with you guys/gals if you're reading, because the person i know has that relation will never read this blog one. hahas. plus its 2 years ago kind of thing already. lol. even if i didn't, she had already moved on. LOL.

Random comments: 7:02am.
Hmmm. but still losing a birthday present just feels so bad. sorry Ivy!
hmm, another person's birthday is also coming up. she was in my adventure camp group when i was leader.. hahas, she was very quiet then compared to now. so chor lor. xP hahas. gift already found but still haven't brought yet. think going to buy it a few days later after i settled for another wallet first.. hahas.

Pressie-Pressie!
Oh! Oh! the Pressie i got on thursday! it was so nice! i've never got a gift like that in my life and i so love it. x)) hehes. its a sad thing you can't read this blog until you get your rest from camp this sunday.. can i kiss you? LOL! Don't worry its just a way of saying thanks, nothing more. hahas. =)
i'll so remember this day, the day that happened before my brithday. =)
Good Nights people! =D

in solitude i stray.
But with purity i pray.

the peak of my teen life.

For this post, its been quite a long time ago so i might not blog in detail like i used to, but i'll write what i an remember. =)

Wednesday, 28 may.
The most stressful day of my life.
the case about the "Enlistment act" and fines were one thing. Then there came another uprising headache that i need to settle my Private school enrollment before my birthday which is only 2 days away. Really made me lost the mood to celebrate much. =/

Yeah, it was really a sad period for me, had money crisis of hunting 2k in a hour. only managed to accumulate up to 1.8k but i'm thankful my dear gan-mei Jie Ying came to the rescue.
hehes thanks so much! =))

After everything went to eat dinner with my 2 colleges. wah. Sakae Sushi supper buffet. =P a little ex but get an extra red plate from normal buffets.
i guess having dinner with them lifted my spirits a little.. =)

Now, 4th june 08.
u know, i actually wanted to make this the most bad, emo post i've ever posted because it just so unluckily fall upon my very day;
but i guess i can't do it.
tell you more on the "30may" post.
Chal!

Be faithful, because you need to.
Be strong, because you are loved.

morning.

Good morning lads!
hahas. i just watched a dvd "PS: i love you". Gosh its such a touching story that i so wanna watch again. hahas. its a good movie to watch if you're in those despair kinda mood.
Do watch it! lol.

Dan in real life.
its also another must watch movie for the family too, highly recommended. a little synopsis about it: this movie really connects to all single-parent-fathers. Dan plays a single father with 3 precious daughters, his wife died a 4 years ago. his a kinda like a counselor to parents with their child, teens to be exact.
Movie begins with Dan, always so lonely when he wakes up to see his wife on the bed. pretty sad situation to miss someone like that if you asked me. Anyways story starts to show the intro to all his 3 girls. then after they went for a trip to a nice bg lounge at the lake. Awfully Dan isn't able to mix well with his own kids even though its his job.
So Dan goes out to cool himself to somehow found new life in a woman he just met. things turn out to be that when he got back he found out that the woman was his Elder brother's girlfriend that his brother introduced to Dan's whole big family. interesting huh, but i really have to say this movie is for the family to watch. it'll be a heart warming show for all to watch. =)
Enough of spoilers, the rest is for me to know and for you to find out. hahas.

What Happened in Vegas?
i also just happened to get to watch "what happened in Vegas" too. Story plots gets a little wrong in the start but soon the movie gets more emotional in the mids of the movie. in the ending of the movie it was sweet. hahas. for a guy to say it so means you girls should go watch it. LOL

Beowulf.
its another fantastic movie i've watched too. Its animated, and i didn't knew it till i watched it. LOL. the animators made the characters so realistic. fooled me by the cover of the dvd to think the viking guy was even real. lols. Anyways Beowulf lives up to his name! its a must watch movie if you're looking for mystical adventure movie filled with hero-monster action. and oh man, i love that Beowulf title music..
can someone get it for me for my birthday? LOL.
i'm asking too much. hahas.

Now, 7:16am, 28 may.
anyways its the morning. hahas, i'm spoiling some time for my appointment later at 8. hahas yeah i missed the one yesterday, actually set my alarm clock at "pm". lols. how crapy can i get. =P
oh anyways college, i just asked my mom, she said ok. =)) saying it here just so i forget, might sleep once i get home in the afternoon cause didn't really get any sleep yet. hahas. i know, i'll take care. =)
Think its enough said. have to go prepare and eat some Break-fast. hahas. may my appointment for my Deferment be a success.!
take cares readers!
Chal.

Why do things always seems so.
when it always doesn't? i sigh.

Updates(Chapter 93).

Settled.
Yes! just called Penciltutor earlier and tml i got appointment for my enrollment into that private school. 8am-9am at Chong Pang, Yishun area there. don't even know if i'll be able to wake up or not either hahas. =x

Situation.
So far things turn out to be i have to take the 3 basic subject lessons, English, E-math, Science to gain a proper deferment from NS. but problem is that i've registered only for 2 papers; A-math and literaure in english. =/

replacement for the 10k fine & imprisonment. LOL.
fees for 4 subjects would be $220.. Gosh. still Expensive!
hmmm. maybe i'll go there sign up to get paid for teaching also? Hahahas. but i was in awe to find out that that school is only run by 3 teachers. LOL.

Main Concern.
i'm rather worried though, i do not know wether the principle will even allow me to get enrolled in or not. Cause seriously, i'm a 15 pointer, i've already got good result for my 3 main subjects.
A1 for E-math, English B4, Combined-Science B3.
A-math got b4 but i know i can still improve at least by one grade.
Penciltutor don't provide for my literature paper, only for my A-math paper.
With all these said, why would Penciltutor allow me in for? i'm just using them for deferment and only getting myself a teacher for my a-math. i know i'm saying it quite rudely, but its the truth. guess i'll be praying about it all night.. haha.

random thoughts.
gosh, 3 more days and counting before my chance of Deferment is gone. LOL. this is the first time i'm doing a count down for my B'day, plus it isn't for anything but for Deferment from NS. hahas, i'm so craped. haha. its gonna be a weird day for me this friday.....
But seriously, i thank God for making my days so roller coaster these days. although its been frustrating, but i kinda get a little peace out from it.
i dunno how to explain it to you guys, but its just seems so to me. haha. i'm having a really humorous life right now, nothing else can get better than this. =)) hahas.


Now. 1.54AM, 27 may.
its getting very late. if i don't get some sleep i'm gonna be late for tml. hahas. better go print those documents i need to bring for tml..
Good nights people. =)
Chal!


i'm coming back.
Because its all about you =)

Enlistment Act (Chapter.93).

one of my worst days ever.
the first law i nearly broke and get fine for.
This is the letter i received:

THE ENLISTENT ACT(CHAPTER 93)
NOTICE FOR PRE-ENLISTMENT DOCUMENTATION AND MEDICAL BOOKING

1. Under the Enlistment Act (Chapter 93), all male Singapore Citizens and Permanent Residents are required to serve National Service (NS). Our records showed that you are liable for enlistment into full-time NS upon reaching 18 years old/ completion of your studies.

2. You are now required to file your pre-enlistment documentation in preparation for enlistment and to book a date for you medical screening through the NS Portal between 02/06/2008 and 20/06/2008 by your SingPass ID and SingPass
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3. Please note that any NS liable person residing within or outside Singapore who fails to comply with this notice shall be guilty of an offence under the Enlistment Act(Chapter 93) and shall be liable on conviction to a fine not exceeding $10, 000 or to imprisonment for a term not exceeding 3 years or to both such fine and imprisonment.

wah, at this point i really want to got crazy and mad for the first time in my 17 years of maturity. i so want to shout and start breaking things.. but i'm not that kind of person. =(
Called up the NS call centre for enquiries for a possible "deferment" just now.

conclusion:
clarified with the clerk and i got a little less tensed. i need to get into a private candidate school for o-lvls to be acceptable for any deferment. Then as for private schools, i have to be Below 18 to register into a private school.

HAHAHA. I GOT 6 MORE DAYS TO GO.
Things are turning out to be more spectacular every step i take. =/ First a fine+imprisonment warning, then now another shocking 6 more days to settle everything.
hais, i've aways been so willing to lend other people my shoulders to cry and to whack on. but for myself? i don't know where to look for my own shelter. hahaha. oh sorry, i was laughing at myself. hahas.
NVM! From that day i told my reason to my ex-school's principle for withdrawing off Singapore Polytechnic is because i've been too living my life off that year. i want to start anew. i already knew i have to be independent for my future. i don't want to be a loser.

Decision for life.
Indeed i've always picked a road to run alone on. i've always picked the toughest road to run, always all so lonely. But nvm! i need to be strong. i'm not proving it to anyone by being brave here, i want to prove to myself that this is the road i've chosen to embark on, this is the reason i'm living so hard for.

terrible post.(removed)
i've writen alot of terrible stuff here actually. but removed it and shift it to a un-post post so you people won't get to see it. xP when will i show it? only to that person who really falls in love in me, who really tries so much as i. hahahas. i'm going to be okay, i'm going to be okay.

Now, 12:54am, 24 may.
blog for so long because of a letter. hahas. this have to be the best present NS could ever give me for a birthday present. LOL. i'm tired. gotta go. chal.


love i've given,
love i'm still waiting.
Denied from receiving,
because i've always tried to be forgiving.

Failing.

i'm losing all my strength. =/
from a high record of 11 pull-ups to a shocking none. i'm so out of my league... i think readers will be shocked if i told you i managed to do 49 push-ups at one go last year December. But now i can even struggle over 3.

gosh. i think i let my left arm rest too much, until to the point where i lost the touch of strength in my left arm. almost every push-up i make i soley depend on my right arm instead, the left just keep disobeying whenever i want to rely on it. i'm so weak. the title "strong" indeed has been taken. super sad.

Back to basics.
never mind. i'm going to train up, build back my strength to my baby left arm. i want to exercise! at least i'm doing something useful. haha.

Today. 3.30pm-9pm
today accompanied 2 boys to BBHQ to buy some stuff. 2 other friends tagged along too. after purchasing stuff we went to kenny rogers! woot! i'm so high. hahaha. college even joked whether we'll became like leonard, keep bring people to nice places to makan. hahaha.

own a car?
but seriously la, hahas, i wanna go to crab shacks first once i get my driver's license and car. LOL! that'll be a very long long time... because i want to use my own money for the car. =x i will not use a single cent from my parents to buy my car. sorry mom & dad! xP

study! 9.30pm-11.00pm.
mac didn't open 24 hours today. it closed at 9pm because of 'repairs'. forgot how to spell the "m" word. lol. so went to mos burger to study. boys already went off earlier so left 3 of us. my buddy came along to join us later then we started to study. then the two friends left first. can see their really tired. hahas. they went off and i noticed soemthing weird but, yeah. hahaha. its never important to notice such things. haha.

Chapters. 11.00-11.05pm.
studied till my brain juice at 0.00%. LOL. but was surprised la, i managed to covered 2 chapters of a-math which that i do not have confidence in within a month. woot! big encouragement. onto triginomic measurement! xD

Groceries. 11.06-12pm.
went to the 883 to get something to recover my brain. nearly end up getting my head into the freezer instead. haha. ate a little supper and got back to do tedious workout and bathed and now posting ever so far. hahas.

Now, 3.11am.
gosh, work's a 9am tml. going client's house to do furnishing(finally!) and clean up of the 3 storey apartment. the one college so wanted to buy. hahas. leave some simple colour edits on, will make it more pleasant to the eyes tml. hahahas sorry people! gotta snooze! Chal!

i don't like getting right answers,
but it doesn't matter now.
because i've denied myself a long time ago.

Heart of Ecclesiastes.

Bored at home. =/
really its nothing to do at home when you're sick.
can't get into study mood. lol. i can only surf net and play games all day. i'm so going to get sicker like this. hahas. oh Gosh! i don't like my hair style!! pray it grows back fast! =x

surf net.
Reading mangas! gosh. i didn't know the stories came out faster in net then being published. now i dunno which is original. hahas. but sad. i spoiled most of the fun buying the comics. i wanna collect them but i already know 2 books ahead le. sad. lol.
nvm! i'm a loyal comic collector. hahaha. =)
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mangas!
read "Bleach" & "One Piece", spoiled it. =P
also just happened to read the ichigo 100%. i say first ah i'm not those people out for 'those' mangas. LOL. i read the story because of the the story of love in the comic. pleas people! think straight! lol.

but honestly i was touched by the twist story of the love triangle. it really felt so touching to me.
gosh i think i'm becoming gay'ish again. lol.
but sad to say la, i thought it would be the other girl cause she was the first he noticed. But end up they had that very sad confession scene!!! x(

"toujou sempai" you are very brave!!!
LOL. i'm so preoccupied by mangas...
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reflection. ._.
off course after reading it i thought for myself for a while la. thought of everything i went through in my life. from the day i first fell into infatuation till the day i first found out that very love i had been looking for my whole life...

but seriously la, they're all but just a sad "fantasy". things never lasted as thought i would imagine it to be, but more accurately, it ended so coincidently and shockingly fast. hahas, maybe i'm not the type girls would like. hahahahaha!

It doesn't matter! i will not look back! hahas. what has happen, happened. no matter how much i remorse over the past, time won't go back to the way it was. hahas.
i'll just keep on smiling ahead. =)
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the leap of faith.
just happened to flip to that very chapter in the bible in church last sunday, Ecclesiastes. i guess it must been faith that brought me to the chapter, because that chapter holds many answers more than any questions i could have asked.
Ecclesiastes, the book of everything. it holds all all the laws i've ever been curious about.

but more importantly, it holds the very answer i've been searching my whole life, the answer to my heart. at that time i really closed my eyes to thank God. he's never forsaken me no matter how many times i've did. i'm contended. =)
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Now. 7:36pm, 18 may.
hmmm. just to let you people know i'm fine. after being able to know about the chapter Ecclesiastes, nothing else could've been better. i believe the plan He has prepared for me. i believe in Him. but i will have to say first: follow your God, but do not follow blindly. hahas. okays enough blogging. =) chal.

"Everything is meaningless".
but to the answer of my heart, =)
There is "a time for everything."