Heart of Ecclesiastes.

Bored at home. =/
really its nothing to do at home when you're sick.
can't get into study mood. lol. i can only surf net and play games all day. i'm so going to get sicker like this. hahas. oh Gosh! i don't like my hair style!! pray it grows back fast! =x

surf net.
Reading mangas! gosh. i didn't know the stories came out faster in net then being published. now i dunno which is original. hahas. but sad. i spoiled most of the fun buying the comics. i wanna collect them but i already know 2 books ahead le. sad. lol.
nvm! i'm a loyal comic collector. hahaha. =)
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mangas!
read "Bleach" & "One Piece", spoiled it. =P
also just happened to read the ichigo 100%. i say first ah i'm not those people out for 'those' mangas. LOL. i read the story because of the the story of love in the comic. pleas people! think straight! lol.

but honestly i was touched by the twist story of the love triangle. it really felt so touching to me.
gosh i think i'm becoming gay'ish again. lol.
but sad to say la, i thought it would be the other girl cause she was the first he noticed. But end up they had that very sad confession scene!!! x(

"toujou sempai" you are very brave!!!
LOL. i'm so preoccupied by mangas...
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reflection. ._.
off course after reading it i thought for myself for a while la. thought of everything i went through in my life. from the day i first fell into infatuation till the day i first found out that very love i had been looking for my whole life...

but seriously la, they're all but just a sad "fantasy". things never lasted as thought i would imagine it to be, but more accurately, it ended so coincidently and shockingly fast. hahas, maybe i'm not the type girls would like. hahahahaha!

It doesn't matter! i will not look back! hahas. what has happen, happened. no matter how much i remorse over the past, time won't go back to the way it was. hahas.
i'll just keep on smiling ahead. =)
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the leap of faith.
just happened to flip to that very chapter in the bible in church last sunday, Ecclesiastes. i guess it must been faith that brought me to the chapter, because that chapter holds many answers more than any questions i could have asked.
Ecclesiastes, the book of everything. it holds all all the laws i've ever been curious about.

but more importantly, it holds the very answer i've been searching my whole life, the answer to my heart. at that time i really closed my eyes to thank God. he's never forsaken me no matter how many times i've did. i'm contended. =)
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Now. 7:36pm, 18 may.
hmmm. just to let you people know i'm fine. after being able to know about the chapter Ecclesiastes, nothing else could've been better. i believe the plan He has prepared for me. i believe in Him. but i will have to say first: follow your God, but do not follow blindly. hahas. okays enough blogging. =) chal.

"Everything is meaningless".
but to the answer of my heart, =)
There is "a time for everything."